Blogging is already so passe', but here I am anyway. So since 2011 or so, I returned to the wild, my natural state, after 15 years with the same man. Married for 10 of them. Still trying to extricate myself from that mess in 2014. Never again!

Both dating and I myself have changed since I got married at 43. 43! You'd think I would've had more sense than that, but apparently not.

So, at age 52, after almost dying, I woke up with the realization that nothing  was ever going to change in my marriage, amd that I'd never be happy like that, and fnally, that life is orecious and there was a chance to find some real happiness with a much better choice of partner if I could just learn from my mistakes. I had no idea what awaited me out there in the world, but figured it had to be better than the life I left.

I was right. I entered tbe befuddling world of online dating hesitantly.  Wow! Whole different planet! Gradually I adjusted. Have met some very nice people. Some became friends. Some weren't so nice, but not many, luckily.

I still haven't found my soulmate, but have gotten real moments of joy and have no regrets about any of it.

I'm still searching, but my idea of who and under what circumstances and how we'll find a life together has been changing and become much more fluid than its been in a long time.

How things will work out or who it'll be with, if anyone, and for how long, is a mystery, as yet to be solved. Maybe.